The Importance of Modeling to Children

If you want him to be happy, choose to be happy.

If you want him to appreciate, be thankful. 

If you want him to have good friends, examine your own.

If you want him to value time, don’t waste yours.

If you want him to stay out of debt, honor yours.

If you want him to be humble, teach him to apologize.

If you want him to be ethical, do the right thing—even when he’s not looking.

If you want him to be courageous, do hard things in front of him.

If you want him to be selfless, make sacrifices for him.

If you want him to be forgiving, don’t judge him.

If you want him to learn right from wrong, you can’t always say “yes.”

If you want him to be a good person, be a good parent.

Friends, please do not use or reproduce my words without my knowledge and consent.

You Bring Out...(poems)

As promised, two of my own "You Bring Out..." poems.

You Bring Out the 1950s

Housewife in Me

You bring out the June Cleaver

and Donna Reed in me. The yes dear

in me. You bring out the rolling pin

in me. The perfect piecrust and icebox

cookies in me. You bring out the dime

store in me, the pink poodle knickknack

in me. You bring out the proper hemline,

embroidered handkerchief, petticoat

and white gloves in me. The dotted swiss

and crossed at the ankle in me. You bring

out the pink and black kitchen in me,

the tea towels and gingham aprons in me.

You bring out the cucumber sandwiches

in me, the pot roast and boiled potatoes

in me, the Jell-O salad and deviled ham

in me. You bring out the Lilt home

permanent in me. The Norman Rockwell

illustrations in me. The Frank Sinatra in me,

April in Paris and World on a String in me.

You bring out the Laura Petrie in me,

the separate twin beds in me. You bring out

the stockings and garters in me, backdoor

milkman and cocktails in the den in me.

You bring out the supper at six, ribbon

in my hair, pre-revolution in me.

Carrie Butler Becker

21 July 2003

Friends, please do not use or reproduce my words without my knowledge and consent.

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You Bring Out the Boy in Me

You bring out the World Series in me,

crack of the bat, bases are loaded, bottom

of the ninth, winning run, crowd goes wild

in me. The swordfight, climbing trees,

spitting over the balcony, daring to jump

in me. The backyard, bugs in a mayonnaise

jar, magnifying glass on ants in me. The spit

wads, bunk beds, clubhouse, dirty jokes

in me. The Boy Scout, superhero, popping

wheelies, don’t be a sissy in me. The cap on

backwards, shirts vs. skins, armpit farts,

flexing in front of a mirror, slap on the back

in me. The roughhouser, BB gun, last one

in’s a rotten egg in me. The war in me,

the fistfight, black eye, lunch money bully

in me. The cockiness, the my dad can beat

your dad in me. The bring it on, tough guy

in me. The Old Yeller, football injury, letter

jacket, underdog in me. The garage band,

hard rock electric bass, “Wipe Out” drum solo

in me. The air guitar in me. The you’re just like

your father, and someday I’ll be somebody in me.

Carrie Butler Becker

21 July 2003

Friends, please do not use or reproduce my words without my knowledge and consent.

Poem 11 - you bring out the boring white guy in me

Okay, it’s time for a tongue and cheek fun poem. Here’s one of my favorites from that category. This inspired me, years ago, to write a couple of similar poems which I’ll post soon.

you bring out the boring white guy in me

Jim Daniels

                for Christina Acosta

the Ward Cleaver in me. The Pat Boone

in me. The K-Mart in me. The Slurpee

in me. The boiled hotdog in me. The mac

and cheese in me. The Tang in me.

You bring out the Hamburger Helper

in me. You bring out the Twinkie

in me. The Cheez Whiz in me.

You bring out the bowling trophy

in me. The student council in me.

The parliamentary procedure in me.

The missionary position in me.

You bring out the canned vegetables

in me. The Jell-o in me. The training

wheels in me. You bring out

the lawn edger in me. The fast-food

drive-thru window in me. The Valu

Meal in me. You bring out the white

briefs in me. You bring out

the cheap beer and weak coffee

in me. You bring out the 15%

tip chart in me. The sad overweight

weekend golfer in me. You bring out

the ex-smoker in me. The jumper

cables in the trunk with flares

and the red flag to tie to the window

in me. You bring out the Tony Orlando

in me. The canned situation comedy

laughter in me. The elevator music

in me. You bring out the medley

of TV commercial jingles in me.

The Up with People in me.

I’ve come to a complete stop

at the stop sign. I’ve got my

emergency flashers on. My doors

are locked, baby,

I’m waiting for you.

from Indiana Review

Volume 25, Number 1, Summer 2003

Garden Update

I haven't forgotten to post a garden update, I've just been too busy out watering to write it! I water every night, and these days it looks like it could use a morning watering, too. Here are some pictures from a week or so ago. I guess the fence has been working because we've seen no signs of intruders since it went up.

I've already harvested three large tomatoes and a couple handfuls of cherry tomatoes as well as four cucumbers. Tomatoes and cucumbers are my favorite foods on earth. (But if I could grow bacon in my garden, I would!)

The glads haven't produced any stems yet. They are an August flower (at least in Wisconsin they are), so I guess they have a few weeks. I can't wait to see them. The Farmer's Market is already full of them, and they remind me of my great-grandmother, Gladys—who grew them partly because of her name. :)





Loneliness

Yesterday when I walked back to my office from my afternoon break, the desperate thought came to me, “God, if I don’t make a connection in my life soon, I don’t know if I can go on.” It sounds ridiculous now, reading those words, but at the time, and for the rest of the day, that night, and even the next morning, they were very, very real. This emptiness is hard. It’s visceral. It’s bone and muscle and blood pain. You want to give what you have, you want to give it ALL, you are ready without reservation, and again and again, the hand never giveth, and maybe even taketh away.

Recently, a very promising friendship faded away without blossom. It made me sad, and tired, and I dwell on it in the middle of the night when my heart rehearses its “Things I Don’t Know How to Get Over” list. My soul-sister of a daughter, who is, incidentally nothing like me at all, hasn’t been in contact with me for well over a year. My heart aches for her. I’ve heard things, and I worry about her. This blog, started in order to build a community of likeminded women, sharing their joys and suffering, doesn’t seem to be making connections yet. I feel like I’m sending out arrows, and they keep landing on parched barren land.

“What am I doing wrong?” I keep asking God, “Don’t I deserve friendship?” I’m pretty sure I do too much asking when I pray and not enough listening. I think it might be God’s nature to not hear questions because, after all, he knows he’s given the answers already.

I dwell on what a prominent fundamentalist Christian family tells other Christian families who feel lonely while living their convictions, “Jesus never promised you friends.”

Is that really how some folks see God? The Father who’d rather see us lonely than connected? Rather we suffer than draw together? I simply cannot believe that. He puts the solitary in families, doesn’t he? I have to believe that or there’d be no point. If he only wanted us to fellowship with the likeminded, how would we ever reach the ones who are ready to change their minds? I don’t think God’s heart has different rooms. I don’t think he runs a list each morning of summa cum laude Christians and cum laude Christians and fifth-year Christians and Christians on probation. 

And yet, I must be misunderstanding something about God’s nature to think of my own as friendless.

God alone is alone, I wrote once. I believe that God is All. There is only One. And if there is only One and that One is All, I cannot possibly be alone. I know this. I also know that I lack the confidence to declare this every time loneliness rides up on its big black steed.

So where does that leave me? I don’t believe in a God who withholds in order to teach. He’s not up there holding back the chocolate pudding until we eat our peas. He’s also not telling me I can’t go out with my friends until my work is done. He’s just not that kind of parent. But maybe he’s saying I’m looking for something where that thing can’t be had. Maybe I’m looking for friendship to fill a part of me that can’t be filled that way. People speak of a God-shaped hole. Maybe I’m trying to fit an F-shaped friend into a G-shaped God hole, and he’s trying to tell me even while I’m cramming it for all it’s worth that that’s not the way we do things. “We” being spiritual beings; “things” being spiritual things.

This is to say, we all take up our crosses. We all bear some load we think we can’t possible bear, and we do it because we think there’s only one way up the mountain. We kind of fail to realize, though, that the point of the mountain wasn’t lugging our cross up it. The point of the mountain was the view from the top. And sometimes the only way to fully enjoy that view is to go it alone.

So, really, the healing I seek isn’t one for Loneliness. The healing I seek is for a better understanding of Oneness.

And then there will be no crosses.

And there will be no mountains. Because I’ll be able to see the view without one.

Poem 10 - Little Things

Sharon Olds is one of my very favorite poets. I hardly read a single poem of hers that doesn’t knock my head back. She writes of everyday things with clear insight, making small things big things (because that is, after all, the proper place for most small things). My favorites of her poems capture moments in time. This one captures a moment beautifully and connects us to other moments in her life. I love that it speaks of the love for her child and the very different, but equally compelling, love for her father.

For all you parents with kids going off to summer camp, this one is for you.

Little Things

Sharon Olds

After she’s gone to camp, in the early

evening I clear our girl’s breakfast dishes

from the rosewood table, and find a small

crystallized pool of maple syrup, the

grains standing there, round, in the night, I

rub it with my fingertip

as if I could read it, this raised dot of

amber sugar, and this time

when I think of my father, I wonder why

I think of my father, of the beautiful blood-red

glass in his hand, or his black hair gleaming like a

broken-open coal. I think I learned to

love the little things about him

because of all the big things

I could not love, no one could, it would be wrong to.

So when I fix on this tiny image of resin

or sweep together with the heel of my hand a

pile of my son’s sunburn peels like

insect wings, where I peeled his back the night before camp,

I am doing something I learned early to do, I am

paying attention to small beauties,

whatever I have—as if it were our duty to

find things to love, to bind ourselves to this world.

What I'm Praying For...

  This week, I’m praying for:

1. The Olympics

Although I’m not a sports fan, I recognize the skill and determination that have made these men and women the best in what they do. I pray for divine protection for each participant. I work with the following verses: I Corinthians 9:24 “Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain.” In Divine Mind, the One and Only Mind, there is no competition, only cooperation.

2. God’s “lost sheep”

Once the seed of truth is planted, once a love of church is established, once a taste of faith has been had, no child of God can be truly lost. I pray with the knowledge that church is the structure of truth and love. Not one of God’s beloved sheep can resist its tender pull.

3. Joy

I return to my prayer for the persistence of joy, for spirit, for peace, for bliss. I pray with Jesus’s promise: “These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full” (John 15:11). Also with John 10:10, “…I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” All of God’s good gifts are permanent, limitless, and abundant.